Resolution

‘Mein tenu samjhawa ki, Naa tere bina lagda jee…’ she was humming the song while completing her assignments. She was unaware of the song she was singing until her inner voice confronted,

‘Isn’t this his favorite?’ She paused for a minute for she was someone who would never permit her inner self to add spark to some random thoughts. She reasoned a perfect answer. She claimed, ‘He does not have the patent of the song.’ Her inner self became silent as if supporting her argument. She felt a deep sense of pride for her mind had over and again proved to be more efficient. She then resumed back to her work with a deep sense of relief that she had shut the unconventional door.

‘It was not your favorite either,’ her inner voice interrupted.

She knew somewhere her mind was unable to impress her inner self. So, it became necessary for her to analyze the matter- the song which was the reason of conflict.

She flipped the pages of last few months of her life. She stopped when the page showed January 01, 2016. She wanted to make best use of this year. She wanted to do something out of her comfort zone. She made a list of things that she wished to accomplish by the end of the year. And the page she was now forced to analyze had in fact connections with her first resolution of the year.

Her first resolution was to choose someone randomly from her friend list and help him or her in some way. She wanted to be the messiah. Once her task was accomplished, she would walk away from that person’s life. But she again put a special condition to her resolution- the chosen person should not be one among her close friends.

She then prepared the list of names of such person from her facebook account. She made many chits and each chit bore a particular name. She kept all the chits in a glass bowl and then she picked one. She opened it and read the name – Ronit.

 Ronit was her colleague. She had hardly spoken to him but had observed him and his activities in last one year. He was sincere, sober and a very reserved person unlike her- chatterbox as all her friends called her. She knew it was difficult to accomplish her first resolution after she won Ronit in the lottery. Yet, she did not give a second thought and somehow managed to make an entry into the virtual world of Ronit. Time passed and their conversation increased. One night, they decided that they would meet for a cup of coffee. And for the first time, they had direct conversation in the real world. As days rolled by, Ronit became a part of her daily schedule. It seemed something was incomplete if she did not hear from him. And in the process, she had long back forgotten her resolution until her inner self confronted her.

She then realized that she had made a wrong resolution. Life did not work according to her stupid plans. Her resolution had formed whirlpools in her mind. She hated to clarify her inner self about Ronit. She did not want to get caged in someone’s thoughts. She had always been a free bird and wished to remain so.  

She decided to walk away from Ronit’s life. And her mind continued the legacy of winning again and again…