Dilemma

‘I’ll meet you at your place for the last time,’ she said in a trembling voice.

‘Okay,’ he replied in a husk tone.

She hold the phone for two more minutes but when silence prevailed she realized he had already disconnected the call.

She never thought he would hang up like that.

‘Everything happens for a reason,’ she thought.

And now she was certain about her decision. She did not need to give a second thought.

She gathered all his gifts- be it the pendant twelve years old, a dress five years back or a watch few months old. She then left for his home. When she reached there, his room was locked. She opened the door for she had access to his keys.

‘Gosh! He’ll never change. How can someone live in such a messy place?’

She started cleaning and cursing him in the process. Once done, she relaxed for a while and felt pride for her marvelous work.

An hour had passed but he did not show up. Many a times, she dialed his number. But ego stood in the way and she disconnected the call before the first ring.

Unable to cope up with the restlessness, she looked around his room. Memories-their memories were scattered everywhere. She wished she could rewind twelve years of her life. Many questions started ringing up in her mind. ‘What would my life been if I never chose to walk with him since 2^nd October, 2004,’ she thought again and again. She knew the answer but was afraid to admit for she had made her mind to start a new journey without him. She knew memories would never let her go for he was someone who made her feel special. She still remembered clearly those early mornings when he used to wait near her hostel gate to get a glimpse of her. And she would knowingly ignore him pretending as if she had not seen him. A smile dropped in her lips when her stupid letter of many pages crossed her mind. She accepted his proposal only if he promised to abide by her conditions. All he wanted was her and for that to happen he was ready to go through any test. And as time passed, conditions lost its hold and they became one. Love blossomed in their lives. They were inseparable and the cutest couple in their friend circle.

Years rolled by. She became stubborn. He loved irritating her. He made her feel jealous- jealous of his female friends. And she began making mountain out of mole. She was in secured. And in last few months her insecurity had reached its peak. And so finally she thought of closing the chapter forever.  

All she wanted was to be free- free from the tag ‘in a relationship’. She now disliked the word ‘love’. Her opinion changed in last few years. The person who meant everything for her had changed and so love slowly transformed into ‘taken for guaranteed’. She wanted to show him that she could live- live without him. And the thought that life would not be the same without him made her emotional. She knew it was the last time she was sitting in his room. Tears slowly found its way.

Suddenly, she heard the familiar sound of engine slowing down in the backyard. Few minutes later, there was a knock in the door. As she walked towards the door, confusions engulfed her.  Her heart wanted to be in his arms while her mind was adamant to call it off.